by Aremu Adams Adebesi
perhaps is who i see myself, see?
something open to doubt unfurling
something biting into desire fortissimo
between truth & lies, there is something
that excuses another for benefits.
in the inconsistencies, something wishes
to stable me. in misgiving, something
languishes my certitude. lives me
to what is left of me. what remains
of my past smudges my clarity.
i hear them, their songs sound like
ghosts & perhaps, bunched into tears
of black slaves emptied in the sea.
why, truth is the only lie that equates
itself with pleasure? why, progress is the
only evil that chisels itself to consent?
what good have you done to me, oh sea-
water-flames? essence is deciduous.
perhaps i’ll die knowing what to unknow,
my sense of self lost on such carrying.
perhaps i’ll write with grief & without,
not knowing what it means. how, tell me,
am i entitled to the art of naming? or to
the philosophy of ownership? i exist
in a named country, live on a named skin,
speak in a named tongue, & perhaps,
freedom is all we talk about now? in-
stead, what wounds me; who annihilates
us? between the wind & the windpipe,
which is intolerant? in lands of the free,
crows fly with wadded wings. i harbour white
deception to be trustworthy. plug by clog
by clutter, the household no longer holds;
an evil thing has happened to the walls!
Bibliography and External Links
Aremu Adams Adebisi is a North-Central Nigerian writer and economist. In 2019, he was nominated for Best of the Net, a Pushcart Prize, and the 2019 Philadelphia Fringe Festival. His work of poetry, “Force Mechanism,” was adapted into Lucent Dreaming’s first theatrical performance in Wales. He has works published in Newfound Magazine, Lucky Jefferson, and elsewhere. He served as a mentor for SprinNG Fellowship and a panelist for the Gloria Anzaldua Prize. He edits poetry for ARTmosterrific, facilitates Transcendence Poetry Masterclass, and curates the newsletter Poetry Weekly on Substack.
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